a knight's tale

enrique fighting ppl...

2007-12-17T16:32:00.001-08:00

Enrique Cheering for Pu- LA PuLA

2007-12-17T16:29:00.000-08:00

hahaz... the freakshow got owned!!

2007-11-23T12:24:00.001-08:00

2007-11-23T12:08:00.002-08:00

2007-11-23T12:08:00.001-08:00

awesome.

2007-11-23T11:24:00.001-08:00

Chaffing of your crotch no more!

2007-11-23T11:19:00.003-08:00

" I Think We should Call it Quits".

2007-11-21T11:43:00.000-08:00

Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry) lyrics

[VERSE 1]
For all the years that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
(didn't you say)
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl
(tell me)
Ok I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
But why are you making this thing drag on so long
(I wanna know)
I'm sick and tired of this silly game
(silly games)
Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[VERSE 2]
I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
(I see it all so clearly)
Me at the door with you in a state
(in a state)
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more.

[CHORUS]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

[BRIDGE]
Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

[CHORUS 2X]
Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don't love you no more

Something That i've been listening for a long while after that fateful night.
These parts I can identify with:
" That's when you turned and said to me
I don't care babe who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more."

" Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry"

2007-11-14T08:17:00.001-08:00

You're My Everything.

2007-11-01T05:17:00.001-07:00

Michael Buble - Everything lyrics

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

You just make me think of you every time I hear "Home" or "Everything".

problem

2007-10-26T17:28:00.001-07:00

Recently, I ran into some trouble.

Situation:
I work as a Information desk staff. There was a rule set that People that are off duty are advised not to be behind the desk in fear of distracting the person on duty.

I came back from having some late night dinner. Planned to finish the remainder of my ice cream (2 spoonfuls to be exact) then head to the library to study. After sitting my bum down upon one of the 2 office chairs for approximately 1 minute, One of the CAs (aside from the one that was already working at the desk) came to the desk.

I was told off (in my opinion I was reprimanded) for being behind the desk when it was not my shift by the CA that approached the desk.

I was too shocked at the intensity/sternness of the tone, hence I did not argue. However after overcoming the initial surprise, I swiftly picked up my bag and headed for the Library.( I had left my bag in the office earlier). But not without slamming my fist into the row of metal mail boxes and chucking the ice-cream into the trash can on my way.

(End of Situation)

Aftermath: I had attempted to study in the library however, my blood was still boiling. Didn't accomplish anything that night.
Found out that the Hall Council needed the room for a meeting. So I was kicked out the second time within a short span of 2 hours. The latter was no issue (of course).

I Failed to Sleep that night, came down for a shift in the morning at 4.00am. Still trying to get the aggression out of my system, I wrote an extremely hateful note on facebook and posted it. Tagging 5 CAs that I could think of at that time (Except the one that pissed me off, again, of course).

The thursday had passed, however I still felt really angry so I decided to skip my much needed study session and go for practice just so I could "Blow off some steam".

Ironically, upon returning to the Hall, intermittent flashbacks of the whole problem resurfaced. Leaving me frustrated, and very annoyed at my inability to find my own equilibrium again.

Finally on Friday, after speaking with my boss about the whole matter, did I manage to find my center again.

My situation internally:

Firstly, I have always respected my fellow colleagues as friends and especially CAs as my superiors. Their main job is to take care of the welfare of a ton of residents.
Something that is amirable.

Perhaps overall I took the whole situation too hard and personally.
However, for someone I consider a friend that I really hold dear to tell me off so sternly is.. kind of hard to take. It was considerably a shot right out of the blue.

Especially when I first reached Minnesota and the first friends I've made were 3 CAs (1 of Them was from T-hall then) they had helped me settle into a completely foreign place and environment.

Well, back to the initial reaction, I was honestly Appalled at suddenly being told off as such. Then after the initial shock left me, I found myself thinking of how unfair it was to be told off as such.
- CAs themselves stay and "hang out" behind the desk after their hours quite a lot. Then I realized perhaps it was because as a Desk Staff I was not entitled to the same priviledges of a CA.
- Yet this same point had caused me to feel extremely unhappy that I was viewed as someone so insignificant.

Reasons why I did not argue when I should have:
- I have been in the military before. Number 1 thing you don't do if you are reprimanded or scolded by a superior is Argue.
- I was too shocked to react before he turned away and walked off.

Looking back, possible reasons why I took it so personally:
1.He was someone I respected + a friend
2. After getting to Minnesota, the first person to actually be this (excuse the language) "Ass-hoeic" towards me was also this person.

I have never been so pissed off since...God knows when. I should have argued then. Perhaps there would have been a better outcome.

Regarding the note posted:
- After being asked to re-read it again, It definitely seemed like a death threat. However I was merely writing the feelings and thoughts going on in the mind. Many have interpreted it as I was going to shoot someone up.

Expanding on this point: I have lived in Singapore for most of my life. No firearms are held by civilians. So if someone from Singapore read my note they would have thought, "Oh, he must have been really really fickin pissed off"
However I realized after a while that I am in America now. Guns are legal.
SO people actually get excited when someone writes about "Guns and shootings".
Anger blinds the eyes and clouds foresight. Most can testify to that.

On hindsight, it was dumb of me to vent using facebook.
Perhaps I should have sent e-mails to myself. Then re-read it and laugh at my own inadeptness at relieving myself of anger.

However Regarding the issue of "bridges burned":
It'll definitely take some time for rebuilding. Also, most who have read it would (possibly) think of me and link me to the VA tech stuff or anything to do with violence.
Damage is done. Can't be helped.
Right now, all I can do is await the news to finish spreading and see which friends actually choose to interact with me henceforth.(laughs)

Regrettably, I might have lost a few friends or potential friends. (sigh)
But hey, as I said, can't be helped.

But I will definitely not hang around the desk anymore.
On the Bright Side, I guess I know who will continue to befriend me and who to build stronger friendships with.

If anyone wants to talk to me about it, sure. Just ask. (well unless you're afraid of me now)

Reborn

2007-10-22T21:05:00.001-07:00

rebirth
Revived,
Refreshed.

Saved
By grace.

lost.
But now lost in my love's loving embrace.

Contentment.
Peace, Joy.

=)

sigh.. does it still exist?

2007-10-20T14:16:00.001-07:00

When I see her, there is only smiles.
When I don't I'm plagued by the fear of what she is thinking.
Why the torment, why the suffering.

Miss her I do.
Time I do not have.

Gifts from the heart I send are never sufficient.
Perhaps a gift of a severed finger, toe or an eyeball?

Perhaps that will suffice.

Truth I am afraid to tell,
burning I feel inside.
Rending heartstring to heartstring.

On whom shall I depend.

Is "it" gone?
Should It end?
Or should it continue.

Lost she feels.
Lost I am.
Time I do not have.
Time wasted,
love strained.
Perhaps I'm out of luck.

Wit's end, perhaps I'm at.
Problems I cannot overcome. Persevere I should?
or Give it up I can't?

Riddles run through his broken mind and pierce right through the heart.

what happened...

2007-10-16T13:07:00.001-07:00

tribute for black farts!

2007-09-10T00:49:00.001-07:00

Benny lava?

Happy Belated birthday from my love!!!

2007-08-31T16:40:00.000-07:00

After speaking with my baby for a short while this morning i decided to check my e-mail and there it was!
A package for me!!
Yay!

I was smiling to myself as i was listening to "beautiful girl" by Sean Kingston

There was this cute cow eraser inside!
Hrm.. I love it but I have no idea what to do with it now.
I guess i'd use it as a bookmark!

Then there was the pirate hARDgay barrel.
Hrm.. i like it but it's not exactly something i'd ask anyone to spend money on.
However what i treasure more is the memory that I have that my baby and i spent walking around and laughing at the Hardgay toy rather than the toy itself.

Haha.. I would go like hard-gay yahooo!!! in public and she would laugh and try to stop me.
Though i'd never really want the toy for it has no meaning, now i have a physical toy to reemind me of times past.
A wonderful keychain from silvera adorns my collection and is resting peacefully with my squishy elephant keychain and mokozi keychain!
:P
Too precious to use.

Here comes my favorite! the letter!
I believe the sweetest present was the letter followed by the keychain.
There were those contact lenses i ordered too! Just what i needed for i was running short on those! sweeett!
Darling, if they buggers that ordered discs and underarmour paid you, pls deduct the cost of the cooler pad and contact lenses from it okay? Don't want you to use so much money on me. however if it's not enough tell me. :(
I'll top it up! :)

There was even a laptop cooler inside! yay!
That was fun! Cool stuff, didn't expect to be sent that!

And here's the mossy greenish paper used to cushion all the schtuff! :)
I enjoyed the letter the most especially with the lovely impressions of both of us and especially with me receiving a kiss!

Hey sweetheart! I appreciate the 21st birthday gift! did you receive my anniversary present and letter?
I agree, you flying over to surprise me is the best present but if not, i'd settle for a letter from you! :)
that's good enough for me.
Well, i don't mind stuff toys, darling, no need to look for plastic toys for me..
Actually, maybe as you've said i've matured a little. (maybe only k?)
The pirate toy is nice, however, does little as entertainment. however does a lot in reminding me of the times where we walked hand-in-hand in cineleisure and looked at the HardGay popout pirate toy. Well, I love it. But i don't really need it to remind us of our good times for the good times are always in my mind and heart. =)
Thanks for sending the cooler pad early so i don't have to wait till december to use it. how thoughtful of you! :)
The Pen was awesome! Thank you sweetheart! =)
just what i needed too, cos i usually need a good pen to write with!
And yes, i know and i am very happy that our relationship has lasted so long.
love you more and missing you more!
and nope! you're not long winded! =)

see i put so many smiley faces! cos i'm smiling so much now! :)
love you and thank you!!

dancE!

2007-08-29T20:11:00.001-07:00

I want to eat your BRAINS!

2007-08-29T19:57:00.000-07:00

stuff i read

2007-08-23T02:20:00.001-07:00

A Lad's Prayer --
"Our beer
Which art in barrels
Hallowed be thy drink
Thy will be drunk
I will be drunk
At home as it is in local
Forgive us this day our daily spillage
As we forgive those that spillest against us
And lead us not into the poncey practise of wine tasting
And deliver us from alco-pops
For mine is the bitter
The ale and the lager
For ever and ever

Barmen." - Anonymous

The Lady's Prayer --
"My Vibro,which brings me heaven
rabbit be thy name
Till Kingdom come,thy maketh me cum
with eye on heaven.
Give me this day my daily thrill and forgive me my screams as i forgive flat batteries.
Lead me not into temptation but deliver me from frustration.
For thine is the rotation
the power and the buzzing
for ever and ever

NO MEN!" - Anonymous

For you to watch

2007-08-16T08:52:00.000-07:00

Hey sweeeetheeeaart. cos i didn't get to see you today. s o.. here's somehting to watch!

Birthdays come early in U.S>of A

2007-08-15T12:06:00.000-07:00

Got Prezzies early..
1 pair of Puma. Shoes.
White on black.

A pair of Absolado Adidas Firm Ground Cleats.

A Pair of Adidas. Beckham Model Absolion Cleats.

And a set of 6 Inch Under Armour Wrist bands.

=)

2007-08-14T23:29:00.001-07:00

A stolen letter from Mr. "R"

2007-08-14T10:12:00.002-07:00

Original Copy:
"Hi everyone,
I hope all you enjoyed the past two weeks beach pick-up, I personally enjoyed it, totally and definitely looking forward for the next one this coming Saturday.
There are now good bunch of newer players getting it and wanting more. I know its difficuly to play hard with the rough sands and the HOT weather recently but it was FUN none-the-less.
For the past 4 weeks or so, when there were no serious training ( or none, to speak off), I took the time to speak to some of our members, on what they want for our future Beach tournament sojourn (local and oversea). I personally was hoping that we as Beach Ultimate community, could get together again and continue to improve our basic individual skills, basic team tactic (defense/offense) play so as we can, all of us stand a good chance of becoming better as an Beach Ultimate Frisbee player and as a team.
all of you rather played well on the last friendlies we had against the ‘oldies mixed freakshow’. That was sometime back in late June I believe before we stop training due to lack of participants.
I would love for all of us to be more prepared than that so as we can give any team teams a good fight during our coming beach tournament and also any other foreign Beach tournament if we are aiming to go.
my idea is to use the newly vacated Beach (next to Trapizza, if there is no event) and next to Sapphire if the former is occupied. We will start practice at 2.50pm onward ( ready to run). We run drills and learn plays. Particularly plays, both offensive and defensive. We will start with the basic vertical stack and basic horizontal stack (for offense) and basic man-on-man / 2-man for defense. After this, we can scrimmage and use what we have learned in a game situation.
All of us have experienced at different level and have different styles of offense and defense. We will put that aside and have a standard play as a whole (offense/defense). The zone offense takes time to perfect. The zone defense always need to be tight. We all need a lots of practice for this as a team. We will also need to have experience at different offensive line-ups… not just the 4-man stack! That will be easy to defend for experience team like Freak.
I do not wish to step on anyone’s toes here. I know some others have ideas on how to make BUMs play to perfection, as of right now, we don’t only need experienced players, we will also need players who can commit and dedicate to our program. We are all equal, as for now. I volunteered to lead the practice and becoming the team leader. If anyone out there think you can do a better job, step out and let us hear you.
I must let all you know that I am not as interested in creating an ALLSTAR nor I wanna be Mr Nice guy during training, what I am interested in is standing on the line on a Saturday and calling a T-stack or a 4-1 or a any other call-play or a zone D and everyone knows exactly what each means and what each position on the field needs to do...and not do... to make the play work. If we can do this on most Saturday...with everyone commitment, we will certainly be playing better in weeks to come! We could even use the Saturdays to organise friendlies with different club to give us more competitive playing time.
as altruistic as this sounds...I do have my own interest at the heart of this plan. As you all get better...more people wanna play beach Ultimate, more beach –goers wanna learn to play Ultimate and more people will know about us. That is my dream, to make Beach Frisbee a culture in Singapore and on Sentosa. And if all of you get better, run faster, I will have no choice but to play better and run faster too.
If you are interested and have ideas in improving and making BUMs a cohesive team and making Bums tournament ready, please reply to this message. Any ideas will be appreciated.
Whose in?

Below are the list of people that are "on" for our new Beach Training program:
Girls : Dawn Tay, Gracie Ngoi and Daphne Ong
Boys : Zhong Wei, Dennis, Daniel Heng, Ra
Our Goal:
short term- Sentosa Beach Tournament and few of those organise by local varsity and local club friendlies
mid term- Borocay, Philipine. April 2008"
--Resad Rahim.

My take:
The English is close to atrocious. Spelling is Awesomely obnoxious.
Worked such as "sojourn" are used to a lousy effect-Much to the detriment to the whole passage and inhibits the reader's momentum. Aside from the constant pauses the reader is forced to make in view of comprehension, the attempts to throw in words that are rarely utilized by the writer himself impedes the flow.
The author has done himself a brilliant attempt at trying to put a few points across. Though, much deciphering was required.

These points (both inferred as well as stated) are:

--Beach Ultimate seems to be lacking players now. "For the past 4 weeks or so, when there were no serious training ( or none, to speak off), I took the time to speak to some of our members, on what they want for our future Beach tournament sojourn (local and oversea)".
Commitment seems lacking. (however perhaps one should think of the cause of such?)

--He has grandiose plans that do not seem to be coming to fruition. Having Scrimmages with local and varsity teams as well as in Philippines (note: he does not spell Philippines correctly).

--Listing out names of people seemingly "committed" to his cause puts a divide between the "quitters" and the "stayers". In essence trying to put across the point: If you are not with me, you're not part of the Program.

-- Also, the author is precise in stating his personal motives.
1. Promotion of Beach Ultimate under the name of B.U.M.S. (which upon inferrence would then lead onto the promotion of his personal frisbee company)

2."I do not wish to step on anyone’s toes here. I know some others have ideas on how to make BUMs play to perfection, as of right now, we don’t only need experienced players, we will also need players who can commit and dedicate to our program. We are all equal, as for now. I volunteered to lead the practice and becoming the team leader. If anyone out there think you can do a better job, step out and let us hear you."
This passage tells us that relations within the B.U.M.S are not going well at all (based on inference again). Dedication and commitment lacking in players is repeated here.
However the interesting portion would be the "We are all equal" yet he had appointed himself the Head of the movement. Based on social convention, to be a leader, one would be ABOVE the followers to be able to actually LEAD. Much contradiction here.
Also, there in an attempt to defend his self-appointment here as seem in "If anyone out there think you can do a better job, step out and let us hear you."
This simply put, after rephrasing, would be "I am the best leader you have right now, therefore, I you can't do better, follow me."
Inspiring. Inspiring indeed.

3. "I am not as interested in creating an ALLSTAR nor I wanna be Mr Nice guy during training, what I am interested in is standing on the line on a Saturday and calling a T-stack or a 4-1 or a any other call-play or a zone D and everyone knows exactly what each means and what each position on the field needs to do...and not do... to make the play work."
This simply emphasizes that he does not want to be having the role of just Team leader. What he wants is both Team leader + Coach. Again contradiction Perhaps?
For if one is a team leader, they lead the team whilst being in the game. A coach tends to stand on the side lines and coach. So which does he want?

4. All in all what is witnessed is the failing and falling-apart of the team called B.U.M.S.
So much so that a call for players to return has been made. Perhaps it is the leadership, perhaps it is the atmosphere, perhaps it is something unmentionable.

As One who is not part of this organization, I am glad. For if my team were to fall apart as such, it would be a sad, sad occasion.
From what I hear, equipment was not provided as promised.
Other minor kinks have occurred as well. Many of which could have been avoided or even if unavoidable, could have been remedied quickly so as not to lose valuable players.
For I foresee that in Many, the flames of passion have come close to being snuffed out.
Perhaps, we require another revival.
Perhaps, we need to bring the "fun" element back into Beach ultimate.

Comments?

2007-08-14T10:12:00.001-07:00

Hi everyone,

I hope all you enjoyed the past two weeks beach pick-up, I personally enjoyed it, totally and definitely looking forward for the next one this coming Saturday.

There are now good bunch of newer players getting it and wanting more. I know its difficuly to play hard with the rough sands and the HOT weather recently but it was FUN none-the-less.

For the past 4 weeks or so, when there were no serious training ( or none, to speak off), I took the time to speak to some of our members, on what they want for our future Beach tournament sojourn (local and oversea). I personally was hoping that we as Beach Ultimate community, could get together again and continue to improve our basic individual skills, basic team tactic (defense/offense) play so as we can, all of us stand a good chance of becoming better as an Beach Ultimate Frisbee player and as a team.

all of you rather played well on the last friendlies we had against the ‘oldies mixed freakshow’. That was sometime back in late June I believe before we stop training due to lack of participants.

I would love for all of us to be more prepared than that so as we can give any team teams a good fight during our coming beach tournament and also any other foreign Beach tournament if we are aiming to go.

my idea is to use the newly vacated Beach (next to Trapizza, if there is no event) and next to Sapphire if the former is occupied. We will start practice at 2.50pm onward ( ready to run). We run drills and learn plays. Particularly plays, both offensive and defensive. We will start with the basic vertical stack and basic horizontal stack (for offense) and basic man-on-man / 2-man for defense. After this, we can scrimmage and use what we have learned in a game situation.

All of us have experienced at different level and have different styles of offense and defense. We will put that aside and have a standard play as a whole (offense/defense). The zone offense takes time to perfect. The zone defense always need to be tight. We all need a lots of practice for this as a team. We will also need to have experience at different offensive line-ups… not just the 4-man stack! That will be easy to defend for experience team like Freak.

I do not wish to step on anyone’s toes here. I know some others have ideas on how to make BUMs play to perfection, as of right now, we don’t only need experienced players, we will also need players who can commit and dedicate to our program. We are all equal, as for now. I volunteered to lead the practice and becoming the team leader. If anyone out there think you can do a better job, step out and let us hear you.

I must let all you know that I am not as interested in creating an ALLSTAR nor I wanna be Mr Nice guy during training, what I am interested in is standing on the line on a Saturday and calling a T-stack or a 4-1 or a any other call-play or a zone D and everyone knows exactly what each means and what each position on the field needs to do...and not do... to make the play work. If we can do this on most Saturday...with everyone commitment, we will certainly be playing better in weeks to come! We could even use the Saturdays to organise friendlies with different club to give us more competitive playing time.

as altruistic as this sounds...I do have my own interest at the heart of this plan. As you all get better...more people wanna play beach Ultimate, more beach –goers wanna learn to play Ultimate and more people will know about us. That is my dream, to make Beach Frisbee a culture in Singapore and on Sentosa. And if all of you get better, run faster, I will have no choice but to play better and run faster too.

If you are interested and have ideas in improving and making BUMs a cohesive team and making Bums tournament ready, please reply to this message. Any ideas will be appreciated.

Whose in?

Below are the list of people that are "on" for our new Beach Training program:

Girls : Dawn Tay, Gracie Ngoi and Daphne Ong

Boys : Zhong Wei, Dennis, Daniel Heng, Ra

Our Goal:

short term- Sentosa Beach Tournament and few of those organise by local varsity and local club friendlies

mid term- Borocay, Philipine. April 2008

2007-08-08T10:24:00.001-07:00